It seems like I've been crying forever. I can't sleep. I dont really have an appetite for anything anymore. I desire to do nothing. I feel like I'm at an all time low. I feel alone. No one understands and I don't think anyone ever will. I hate this pain that I have to go through. I wish I could just forget everything and make it all disappear. I just wish I could stop crying. Everyone tells me I'll be okay. I'll survive. Will I? I didn't think it would hit me this hard, but it has. People tell me I'll find another. They tell me I don't need him and that it's about time we parted. They never did like him in the first place. They disapproved of our relationship from the beginning. Have they ever thought once about my feelings? I liked him. I enjoyed being with him. I loved him. Waking up every morning and realizing the person that has always been with you every day of your life isn't there anymore hurts. How can people fall out of love so quickly? How can they turn off their emotions just like that? Why do people lie? Why can't they be honest and upfront about their feelings? Why do they go on as if everything's alright? Why act like everything's perfect when it's not? How do they go on with other people and act like they didnt just get out of a relationship? How can you find someone so quick? You say you want to remain friends. After all I'm your best friend, your first gf, your first everything. You want to be able to talk to me about anything and everything...even when you meet someone new and you want me to be able to do the same. Is that possible? I can't even talk to you without shedding a tear and you expect me to do all that? You say you'll call because you want to keep in touch. You want to know what's going on in my life. You say you care. Do you or do you feel sorry for me? How about guilt? Do you feel guilty because you've hurt me? Or is it because you feel it's necessary for you to do so? You think you owe it to me? Spare me the bs. I don't want your pity.
"...I don't want you to give it all up
and leave your own life collecting dust
and I don't want you to feel sorry for me
you never gave us a chance to be
And I don't need you to be by my side
and tell me that everythings all right
I just wanted you to tell me the truth
You know I'd do that for you
So why are you running away?
Why are you running away?
I did enough to show you that I was willing to give and sacrifice
and I was the one who was lifting you up
when you thought your life had had enough
when I get close you turn away, nothing that I can do or say
so now I need you to tell me the truth
you know I would do that for you
So why are you running away?
Why are you running away?
Is it me? Is it you?
Nothing that
I can do
To make you change your mind
Is it me? Is it you?
Nothing that
I can do
Is it a waste of time?..."