Alright on to what I wanted to talk about. Yesterday, as I was leaving for work my mom told me that Reci was coming over to spend the night at my house. I was surprised. I mean we havent talked in weeks. Awhile back, she emailed me concerning about our friendship. She was angry/upset with me. To make matters worse, I didnt read the email til weeks later because I havent checked my email in gawd knows when. I dont check it like I used to. I emailed her back but I havent gotten a reply so when my mother told me she was coming over, you can understand why I was a bit shocked. Dont get me wrong, there is nothing wrong with her being over here because I have no problem with that at all. Like I said, I was just flabbergasted. So, I went to work as usual. D.A. calls me later to ask if I wanted Marisol to pick me up since they were at my house. I said sure why not. Everyone was at my house. Kylah, Marisol, Amira, Denise, Marlene, Guadalupe, D.A., Vanessa, Reci, and myself included. As I've mentioned before (if u wanna look at my past entries) that Kylah was doing everyone's hair. Anyway, I said hi to everyone when I arrived. It felt kinda awkward because I didnt really know how to approach Reci. I mean should I confront her and talk about the whole incident or not? I decided not to since all these people were here. Well anyway throughout the whole night, it seemed like Reci was distancing herself from the rest of the group. I felt bad, but I didnt really know how to go about the whole thing. Everything else was going okay til I mentioned to Vanessa that we might not be able to go to this Stila MakeUp MakeOver type of thing. She starts crying in the bathroom...crying hard. Ok, I feel bad. I know I promised her and all, but we (my friends) wanted to do something else. I even told Nessa I was still gonna give her some money in place of that whole outing, but she wouldnt hear none of it. Marisol tried talking to her also, but she was in that leave me alone mode. Look...I love my sisters, but sometimes they expect way too much out of me. I try my best to do nice things for them but sometimes I feel like they dont appreciate the things I do and when things dont go their way, Im suddenly this big bad person. Another thing, I wish they would understand that Im not made out of money. Yes I want to buy them things, and Yes I want to go places with them...but in order to do all things, u must have money. I dont mind spending my measly paycheck on them because for one, they're my sisters, secondly I like doing stuff for them, and last but not the least I love them. So anyway...that night I felt like Reci and Nessa bonded because they had something in common...they were mad/upset (whatever u wanna call it) at me. U can feel the tension in the air. Imagine how I felt. I was pretty bummed. I guess Marisol saw that cause she asked what was wrong. I just shrugged my shoulders, she knew what was going on but didnt press the matter cuz I didnt feel like talking about it. I went outside for some fresh air. Marisol and Kylah followed. A couple of minutes later Amira came. I just started talking to them how I felt. Kylah told me what was bothering Reci. I guess I'll try to straighten things out now since I probably wont have the guts to approach Reci face to face. Kinda weird since she's at my house right now. We're acting normal but yet u can tell something's different. Anyway...here I go..this is for you Reci:
Im sorry that you feel that we arent close anymore. I dont share the same feelings that u do though. Sure, things seem a bit different, but I still feel like our friendship is rock solid. We havent talked much or spent time together because of the distance. You moved in with your sister and dont live in the neighborhood anymore. You can see why we havent talked. I also want to mention that I try to treat my friends equally. No one is better than the other. The thing with Alicia...Im not making it out like she is the better than you, it's just that Ive known her longer. Im not trying to belittle you or our friendship. I know you've been there for me in my times of need...good or bad and you know I've been there for you aswell. I just hope we can look pass this and try to work more on our friendship.
You know what? Im not gonna label anyone my "best friend". Alicia, Amira, Marisol, and Reci...you guys know how I feel about yall. I value your friendships and think of you as my sisters. I love each and every one of you the same. None of that she's better than you crap, comprende? I hope I spelled that right.
Im sorry that you feel that we arent close anymore. I dont share the same feelings that u do though. Sure, things seem a bit different, but I still feel like our friendship is rock solid. We havent talked much or spent time together because of the distance. You moved in with your sister and dont live in the neighborhood anymore. You can see why we havent talked. I also want to mention that I try to treat my friends equally. No one is better than the other. The thing with Alicia...Im not making it out like she is the better than you, it's just that Ive known her longer. Im not trying to belittle you or our friendship. I know you've been there for me in my times of need...good or bad and you know I've been there for you aswell. I just hope we can look pass this and try to work more on our friendship.
You know what? Im not gonna label anyone my "best friend". Alicia, Amira, Marisol, and Reci...you guys know how I feel about yall. I value your friendships and think of you as my sisters. I love each and every one of you the same. None of that she's better than you crap, comprende? I hope I spelled that right.
posted by Rhapsodized at
11:04 AM
