I had a weird day...sort of. I was fine at work. I came home and did my usual routine. Out of nowhere, this feeling of sadness came over me. Didn't know where it came from or what caused it. Before I knew it, tears started to fall. I cried and cried in my room til I couldnt stop crying anymore. I can't really explain it, but when I finished crying I felt relieved. Maybe it was stress? *shrugs* Anyways, I started playing some music. Most of the songs I chose reflected on the mood I was in. Here are a few of them in no particular order:

December -=- Linkin Park
Papercut -=- Linkin Park
Crawling -=- Linkin Park
In The End -=- Linkin Park
Island In The Sun -=- Weezer
Relax -=- Powerman 5000
Beautiful -=- Joydrop
Sometimes I Wanna Die -=- Joydrop
Youth Of America -=- Birdbrain
Hemmerage(sp) -=- Fuel
Sweet Dreams Are Made Of These -=- Marilyn Manson
Blue Monday -=- Orgy
Stitches -=- Orgy
LadyFingers -=- Luscious Jackson
Bent -=- Matchbox 20
You Get What You Give -=- New Radicals <--- What ever happened to them?
Where Have The Cowboys Gone -=- Paula Cole

Listening to music kinda made me feel better. Amira called and said she was coming over with her brothers to watch some videos. They lifted my spirits up just by having their presence here. Vanessa (my sister) decided to put on some Backstreet Boys. My mood did a 360. I felt SO much better after hearing them. Weird eh? Nessa, D.A., and I were the only ones that actually enjoyed em. Amira and her brothers were like "Oh geez". LOL

Tomorrow is payday. Yay. Anyway, here's my schedule for the week:

11-9-01 Friday -=- 7:30-4pm
11-10-01 Saturday -=- 3-11pm
11-11-01 Sunday -=- 7:30-4pm
11-12-01 Monday -=- Off
11-13-01 Tuesday -=- Off
11-14-01 Wed. -=- 4-11pm

If there's one thing I despise more than anything in this world, it's racism. I can't stand ignorant people. Look at this shit -->
Hate In The News. I cant even comment on it. Im speechless. I cant believe people actually have the nerve to do that crap. Just looking at their smiling face disgusts me. I hope they get what's coming to them.

Work sucked as always. I hate my job so much. The only reason I put up with this hellhole is because I want my friggin yearly raise. I was suppose to get it in July, but have I seen it yet? No. Most of the people I work with are so fake. They smile in your face and talk about you behind your back. They're all about gossip, gossip, gossip. Don't get me wrong...some people I work with are cool as hell, but the majority of em...well...that's a whole different story. I'm so tired right now. I hope I fall asleep as soon as I finish this blog b/c I have to open tomorrow. We got out late as usual. I swear I hate closing. Now that we have these new registers where you can scan your own stuff, there are more responsibilities to be taken care of. Alright, enough of that crap. While I was at work, I called my house to check on my sisters. No answer. I call again and again. Still no one answers. I call Vanessa on her cellphone. It's off. Ugh...where could they be? I call Amira and Eddie to see if they're with them. Amira's phone is off and Eddie tells me they're not at his house. By this time, Im like really worried. I call Nessa's cellphone once again. Finally, she answers. She tells me they are at the movies with Amira, Marisol, Alicia, Christina, D.A., and Aubrey. Aubrey is my other sister who's home for the weekend from college. I didnt even know she was gonna be here this weekend. I didnt bother to fuss at my sisters because I saw that there was no point in that. I felt kinda sad that I didnt get to hang out with all of them. Sometimes I feel like I have no life because of this stupid job. Even though I go out occasionally, I still feel this way. Overall, my entire day was really awful. Something else happened before I went to work, but I wont get into that b/c Im sleepy. Plus, I feel a headache coming on.