Omg I had so much fun yesterday. Amira, Marisol, Nessa, D.A. and I went to the movies and out to eat. We saw Jeepers Creepers. Man...that movie was a lil too graphic for me. It was like one of those old horror movies with the "scary monster". I have to admit that the creature in the movie was pretty frightening. The way he ate and killed people was too horrific. I screamed a couple of times and D.A. blurted out "STOP" all loud n shit when the whole theatre was silent. I started cracking up. I was like "shuddup" *lol* Overall, the movie was ok. It wasnt as good as "The Others". That movie was so friggin good! Now, that was scary. Anyway, we went to eat at Chili's. Nessa got mad at one of the hostess cuz of her poor service. Our waitor was cool though. Vanessa wrote him a lil note praising him about his good service. We then went home after that. Nessa and D.A. had the rest of us rolling in the car with their singing and dancing. It was hilarious. People were looking at us like we were on crack or something. We weren't. It was just a natural high :)

Today I went to work. We were so busy. As usual, the customers got on my nerves with their complaints. Im like gawd, enough with that crap already. It's like they make it their number one priority to bitch and whine about every darn thing in the store. I hate this job so much *sighs* Other than that, some dude slipped me a paper with his phone number and name. I was like "wtf" I didnt know what was written til I opened it up. It had his name, number, and a message saying "I really like you. Call me when you get home" with a smiley face at the bottom. hah I started laffing. He was long gone before I could say anything. I mean, how could u possibly "like" someone whom you've spoken to for about a minute or two? WHAT-E-VER! Well, I threw his number in the trash. I didnt need it nor did I want it. I have a man, thank you very much. Speaking of my better half..I havent spoken to him in a couple of days. We've both been pretty busy with work and stuph. My bro picked me up after work and stopped by Randall's to get some hot dog buns. chili, and shredded cheese. He was making hot dogs for dinner *lol* which I didnt get to eat. It's alright though cuz I got some food from Taco Bell. I was craving for some tacos, havent had any in awhile. Plus, I havent been to Taco Bell in ages. Before going to Taco Bell...Amira, D.A. and I went to Eriberto's house to borrow some PS2 games and dvd movies. We then, headed for my house and watched some movies. We're watching Exit Wounds now. Im not really paying attention cuz Im too busy writing in this.

Oh yeah...I was gonna comment on Britney's performance. It sucked as usual. I guess shaking her ass is supposed to be appealing? Well maybe the males thought so, but not me. What she had on was not cute at all...and the snake thing? *rolls my eyes* Puh-lease! My opinion still remains. The girl cant sing and I will never like her. Moving on to the other performances...Missy did well, so did U2, Linkin Park, and Staind. Well, Im tired of writing so I think I'll end this. Later.

I am SO happy! Dont ask why cuz I dont even know myself *lol* I had a sucky day at work, but for some reason I came home all happy n shit. Weird. Oooh my baby's on! *big ol kool-aid smile* haha Uhm... so...*calms down* Oh yeah, I read Vanessa's blog and saw what that punk wrote about me I dont always say "Raise on up"
-LOL- Lies...all lies I tell ya =Þ Moving along... Nessa told me that BSB lost to funky ass NSTINK. Gawd, I HATE them so much. Yah Yah, I know hate is a strong word but I actually mean it this time. Oh and I also hate Britney Spears. That girl cant sing for shit and plus she's so friggin' ugly. Yes, the girl is ugly to me and no, Im not jealous either. Why would I be envious of her hoochiefied(if there's even such a word), no singing talent ass? This might seem a bit harsh coming from me, but I really despise that girl. She seems so fake to me. The way she acts and carries herself just irks the hell out of me. Alright, enough of that. I dont wanna get worked up over some dumb whore....whoops did that slip? Oh well. You'll get over it. Sorry Nessa, but there's nothing in this world that will make me like Britney Spears. I have no respect for that girl whatsover. Anyway..Im watching a rerun of the mtv awards. Mah girl Alicia Keys just won an award. Yay! Ew...nstink is performing now. What in the world are they wearing? Are they on crack or something? Just as I predicted...their performance SUCKED. The only "good" thing about it is when Michael Jackson came out and performed. Go Michael! He still got it :) Jay Z is performing...wOoo HoOo I luv this song *sings along with Jay Z* Man...he so crunk. haha I used that word. OMG...Andy Dick is so fucking hilarious! -LMAO- He got me cracking up over here. BOOOOOO, nsync just won an award. *shudders* Ugmos I swear...they dont deserve anything. Mmkay, thats it for tonite. Im gonna finish watching the rest of the show. Later.

P.S. U know Im gonna write about Britney's performance tomorrow. My prediction --> It's gonna blow!

Blogger is taking forever to load. Grrr. I guess I wont be posting that much. I made breakfast..wow..I actually cooked. Nothing major...just eggs n stuph. My bro was on the couch sleeping at the time I was cooking, He then pops up from his sleep, looks around, and says "Is that food I smell?" LOL... yes brother dear..thats food u smell. He's all like "wOoO hOoO" He's such a tard -hehe- Im flippin through the channels to see whats "good" at this time of day and I see nothing. I stopped at Mtv and see this video that I hate. Ok maybe hate is a bit harsh..lemme change it to "dislike". The first thing that pops in my head is "CHANGE the channel, quick!" but for some reason I decided to watch it. I did. I watched it from the beginning to the end and I hate to admit this but Im kinda liking this song. heh It's growing on me. The name of the song is Clint Eastwood by Gorillaz. Now, Im watching A Wedding Story on TLC(The Learning Channel). I luv watching that :) Well, Im off to eat my breakfast. t00dlez

UGH!! I am SO pissed right now and to top it off my mom's fussin' at me. Oh gawd, why cant she just leave me alone? *screams* She's all like "You spend too much time on the computer" Im like "No, I dont" heh..do I? Anyway, she's ranting on and on about how I dont pay bills..blah blah blah. To stop her yakking, I turned off the light making it seem like I went to bed. Sad huh? Yeah I know. So, Im sitting here in the dark..typing and chatting on irc. I got skillz! hehe Im gonna go to bed in a lil bit. This is bad for my eyes =\

Im watching BET at the moment. They're playing Favorite Mary J. Blige Videos. YaY! I luv me some Mary J. My all time fave video/song is Everything. I absolutely love it! I have the house to myself...YES! My mom's at her class and the two bums(my sisters) are at C.C.E classes. For those of you who dont know. It stands for Catholic.Cathechism(sp).Education...sorta like Sunday School but on a higher level. Vanessa need these classes so she can make her First Confirmation. Speaking of Nessa...check out her blog --> BoonJonJon As u can see, my sister is retarded haha Just Kidding Nessa :P

Crawling in my skin, these wounds they will not heal.
Fear is how I fall.
Confusing what is real.

There's something inside me that pulls beneath the surface
Comsuming, confusing
This lack of self-control I fear is never-ending
Controlling, I can't seem...

To find myself again
My walls are closing in
I've felt this way before
So insecure...

Discomfort endlessly has pulled itself upon me
Distructing, reacting
Against my will I stand beside my own reflection
It's haunting, how I can't seem...

-= Crawling =- by Linkin Park

Ive really liked this song ever since I got the Linkin Park cd. I saw parts of the vid on mtv. Boooo...now everyone's gonna be jockin' this song. BLAH. I liked it even better when it was just me bumpin to this song. Now, everyone's gonna be all over it like white on rice. Ok, that was corny...but u see what Im getting at? I hate how everyone's all like this is "my song" just b/c MTV aired that vid. So...whatever mtv plays, is the "in" thing? I think not.

After reading Ali's blog, Ive come to the conlusion that she's in need of a huge hug. so there --> *BIG HUG*
Just ignore all that negativity around you. This reminds me of that song Shake Them Haters Off. I think that's the name. Well, u know what Im talking about. I just got my schedule from work and it's actually good for a change. Here it is:

Thursday: 3-11
Friday: Off (Omg..I actually had a friday off. WoOo HoOo!!)
Saturday: 10-7
Sunday: 3-11
Monday: Off
Tuesday: 10-7
Wednesday: 3-11

I'll actually have free time to run a few errands. Not bad, not bad at all. I was suppose to call Linda (my ex manager) to get more details about this job she's gonna hook me up with, but all I get is a busy signal. Linda....quit your yakking and get off the phone man :P I called again and now her phone's off -frowns- Hopefully, she calls me back. After all, she's the one who wants me working with her again. hehe

I actually had a decent time at work. Sad, but true. We got out at 10:30 instead of the usual 11/11:30. Im impressed! Not really, but you get the picture. hmm...just read Ali's blog ... Alicia, Im SORRY if ppl were rude to you. It isnt my fault u know? Besides, I rarely to talk to anyone on irc anymore so I find it odd that ppl still come to my room. Anyways...

Once again, someone took offense to what I wrote. I think it's about time I have a heart to heart talk with this person. You know who you are. If you're reading this, get in touch with me as soon as you can. Im really tired of the miscommunication between us.

I said I was going to sleep, but what am I doing up? I dont know whats wrong with me. I need sleep, my body's telling me the same thing so why arent I in bed? Im going to force myself to sleep. Hope this works. Im out.

One..two..three..ok, I'll stop there. Why am I counting? *shrugs* Prolly due to boredom and something else. Perhaps frustration? Whatever it is, it's putting me in a weird mood. Im tired of waiting... tired if disappointments...tired of everything.. Im heading for bed. I'll just leave u with these lyrics:

"I wish that I could find a way to make you see things through my eyes. Maybe you would understand, maybe baby then you'd realize and what you put me through no matter how I try you're never satisfied. You take advantage of me and when I need your touch, you never give that much. That's not the way it should be.

It's always about you and the things that I can do for you. Why can't you ever think about me and what I need? I give you all of my love. Apparently that's not good enough. I don't know any more I can do. It's true baby it's always all about you.

Sometimes I lie awake at night and wonder why you treat me like you do. Am I just a fool to think that you would ever learn to give to me the way I give to you. It's driving me insane baby. You say you care for me but you're never there for me when I need you the most. If you wanna be in my life you better find a way to make it right 'cause I can't live this way anymore.

I remember when we first fell in love, used to give me all your affection. So concerned with doing for me but now things have changed. I guess those days are all gone. It's always all about you..."

*** This is not directed at anyone so dont start assuming things. It's just lyrics that caught my eye. It made me think about relationships and how this applies to the parties involved. It can go either way, whether it's from a guy or girl's point of view. Kinda makes u think about your other half and how you treat them, huh?

Jay Z's Izzo (H.O.V.A) is on the tube. Im liking this video, everyone seems to be having fun and enjoying themselves. This is the first time I've seen this vid. Yeah, Im late but who cares. I dont watch tv that much anyway. I had such a horrible day at work. Not only that, but my sleepless night contributed to it aswell. I went to bed around midnite last night and had to get up at 6:30 to get ready for work. I was scheduled to work 7:30-4. I was 10 minutes late. I, then had to deal with a rude ass customer. She said I wasnt "cheerful" enough to her liking so she asked to see the manager. Was that even necessary? This is like my FIRST complaint ever. She sux =| Oh well. I would go on and on about my sucky day, but I'd rather not. After work, we took Aubrey back to her dorm and drove back home in the rainy weather. It was kinda nice. We were in the car with my brother and played bsb songs. I was surprised he didnt get mad. We kept singing at the top of our lungs. He just laffed, saying we're such d0rks. hehe Yeah so :P Nessa wants to experiment with make-up. Im her muse *shrugs*

Update:
Robert and I made up. YAY! :)

You know what bothers me the most? This whole asian pride crap. Im really sick of those asian stereotypes out there. I see these online communities and it's fine that these asians found their own lil haven...but I HATE the way they uphold themselves. There is absolutely nothing wrong with being asian and proud, you know? BUT if you gotta go around typing all this ebonics crap, that's where it just gets UGLY! Im sick of asians talking like this ---> Example:
1. cUz YoU dA iSh rIgHt yO?
2. wHeRe u RePpiN fRoM?
3. PiNaY/pInOy/ViEt/KhMEr, etc. PrIdE to ThA fUlLeSt bAyBeE !

GAWD, i fucking hate that shit! It's giving us normal folks a bad name. We're intelligent people and its about time they start learning friggin grammar rules. Look, Im no better myself, but sheesh. I dont overdo it. At least I know my limits. Oh just because Im one of them does not mean I try to "rEprEsEnT mY AZN prIdE fo EvA" because that's just ignorant and I'd rather not fall into the stereotypes. I also dislike it when they alienate themselves from the other groups and when they see another asian person, they automatically think u two are friends for life. I think Not! I dont know you, therefore dont approach me like Ive known you all of my life.

NOTE:
This is my...lemme reiterate, my OWN OPINION which I am entitled to.

haha I got Alicia addicted to this thing.
Lookie:
[10:46:02pm] @Alicia-: woah
[10:46:06pm] @Alicia-: i'm addicted to this blog shit
[10:46:08pm] @Alicia-: gawd damn
[10:46:09pm] @Alicia-: sharon
[10:46:14pm] @Alicia-: you got me hooked
[10:46:23pm] @Alicia-: hooked like a stuck in a bitch in heat
[10:46:24pm] @Alicia-: LOL
[10:46:31pm] @Alicia-: like a dog stuck in a bitch in heat
[10:46:36pm] @Alicia-: thats what i really mean to say
[10:46:37pm] @Alicia-: but
[10:46:37pm] @Alicia-: you know
[10:46:42pm] @Alicia-: brain and hands not connection
[10:46:43pm] @Alicia-: lol
[10:48:51pm] @rhapsodized: LMAO
[10:48:52pm] @rhapsodized: ROFL
[10:48:57pm] @rhapsodized: no comment
[10:49:13pm] @rhapsodized: i told u it was addictive :P

Alicia..my BESTEST (if there's even such a word) friend in the whole entire world is keeping me sane at this very moment. Talking to her helps me alot. Alicia is always there for me in my time of need. I thank God for having her. We've been best friends since 1991, we were in sixth grade at the time, and since then we've been tight. She is like a sister to me. My family adores her and treats her as one of my siblings. I dont know what I'd do without that girl. She's the GREATEST! Thanks Ali, for everything *huggs* Go check out her blog :)

I also would like to mention that Reci's been a big help aswell. Thanks gurlie =) She's my other best friend. I met her my freshman year in high school which was back in 1994. Reci, you're the COOLEST!

I wish people would come and talk to me first before they start assuming things. I dislike how people misinterpret my words. I also dont like it when people run away from things instead of facing them head on. Talk to the person to find out what the problem is. Communication is the key to all this, after all. Oh and another thing, put your pride aside once in awhile.

This is my outlet for my anger, happiness, sadness, depression, or whatever it is Im feeling for the day. If you have a problem with that, talk to me about it. I dont want to come off as uncaring and inconsiderate. It's just that Im not always happy go lucky nor am I perfect, but I am allowed to voice my own opinion. This is me and what I say should count no matter what. Im sorry if I hurt your ego/pride, but I cant just sit here and act like everything's all fine and dandy. The world isnt going to end just because I expressed some kind of negativity towards a certain situation. If anything, we should work on that problem and fix it.

Listening to Brian McKnight at the moment. Music to my ears. All day long Ive been lounging around the house... listening to music, watching tv, and reading. It's just one of those days when you dont feel like doing anything at all. Im off from work once again. Gotta love those off days. Im talking to Ali on irc. Just chitchatting about guys and how they're such a pain in the ass..well sometimes, and not all guys. So, all u fellas out there..DONT get offended. Being in a relationship sux sometimes. I just wish it was simple. I see you, I love you, you love me, we're happy...that kind of contentment only exist in a perfect world. It is really hard to love someone so much to the point where you'd do anything to make them happy even if it's letting them go. Maybe that's why Ive been feeling kind of weird lately. I need them so badly, and my life would just be worthless without them...and yet if they stay with me, will they be happy? I want to be happy too and even though happiness is my entire goal for life, I will never put my happiness above the ones I love.

I actually went to church today. About time, my mother says. I havent been to church in a long time cuz of work. It was ok. I mean church is church. What else can you say about it? The rain stopped for now, who knows when it'll start up again. Im listening to Nelly Furtado's cd. I've been playing her cd aswell as Krystal Harris alot lately. Hmm....Im in the mood for some Alicia Keys though. I'll play that next. Just got off the phone with Ali. We were talking about how exciting it was to start making webpages again. Im like yeah, but just watch, we'll both start losing interest later on. In the beginning it's all fun and exciting, but as the days go by it's like "fuck it". Not that we cant commit to it. It's just that we both tend to get a bit sidetrack due to our busy lives. haha Aint that right, Alicia? *lol* but who knows? We might actually accomplish this goal. We'll see...

Never Felt This Way(Interlude) by Alicia Keys:
"There will never come a day you will ever hear me say that I want or need to be without you. I want to give my all. Baby just hold me, simply control me because your arms they keep away the lonelines. When I look into your eyes then I realize all I need is you in my life. All I need is you in my life cause I never felt this way about lovin. No, never felt so good baby. Never felt this way about lovin, it feels so good"

*** I really like this song

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hmm...still didnt work. Oh well, back to phase one.